swells

snow falls 

and my heart swells.

Christmas is over again, for another year. As 2014 slowly approaches and 2013 winds down, I am reminded that I must take some time to pause and reflect on the past year. But I don’t think I want to, just yet. And maybe not ever. 

What I think ahead to is 2014, and what has been unfulfilled yet and what is yet to come. those things that my heart longs for, but that have not been realized yet. At the beginning of 2013, when I fasted, I heard His voice tell me clearly, “Things will happen, just as I have promised.” I’m still not quite sure what that all means. Many things happened and came to pass in 2013… amazing and tough and challenging and stretching things, but not in ways I that I anticipated [isn’t that how it always is, though?]. What I need to be confident about, is that His timing is not my timing, but He is working over my life and my future in ways I cannot fathom. my mind is too small to comprehend such things.  

I daydream too much and I get caught up in my own thoughts and feelings of how things are, or how they should be. In the end, I realize that nothing is how I dream it to be, but that doesn’t mean it is any less real. So my heart will continue to swell as I think and feel and look ahead to what is to come. I only pray it is not all just in my head or my heart, but that there is meaning in all of this. 

i wish I could share with you that swelling feeling that occurs in my heart when I experience something beautiful. I hope someday that you experience it for yourself. It’s pretty amazing. 

 

“all is calm, all is bright.”